My gut has reservations and second guessing. If those are constantly confirmed by tangible evidence then it is best to go with my gut. Giving some a chance to trust eachother and then only to repeatedly be lied to and have things “down played” when they were actually much more then led on, it hurtful. A bond can easily be broken never to be repaired. If they lie (and hide) to someone else about me for over four years then they most certainly are being dishonest to me as well about others.
I should have went with my gut from the start. Shame on lying men. They will pay for it in the end when they end up alone. I will never talk to him again, ever. I have had enough.
My heart will be cared for by a Good doctor not the Math nerd. Lesson learned. Time to call the doctor.