Monday June 5th

I had a date last night. I had high hopes, but alas, it was a dud. He is cute- his pics are cute and he really was, BUT, ugh. He is tiny. I felt like a giant. Not a good feeling. I don’t know how to get out of it now. I am so bad at dating! There was also some language issues- that was a first for me. He has been in the US since high school, so like 20 years, but he still has a heavy accent and I feel like an idiot when I have to ask him to repeat himself. So many problems. He said he moved to NYC after a divorce in Cali. I would love to see what the wife looked like. I wonder if she was a giant, too. 😛

I have another guy that wants to meet this evening because he is going out of the country for 3 weeks this weekend. I don’t know how I will manage to get myself together since we have to stay late here today. I worked really hard on myself yesterday and was disappointed. I only met the dude for coffee and he wanted to walk. So after coffee we walked over to Riverside park and I guided us up to my building where I planned to peace out. He tried to get upstairs. Ugh. He said, “Do I get to meet Sophie?” Um, hell to the no? He followed me into my building and all the way to the fucking elevator. Jesus. I was all like bye, Felicia. Fuck. Did he really think I was going to let him come up to my apartment when I have known him for 2 hours?? 

One thought on “Monday June 5th”

  1. This is what scares me about dating. I’m newly separated, after 16 years of being with my ex, and even though it might be nice to meet someone new the whole dating process seems terrifying. When I met my ex, I was young and full of self-esteem and it just all seemed to happen. Now meeting a nice person that doesn’t plan on murdering me or using me to clean his house seems beyond reach. Oh, as a 5’9″ woman, I can relate to feeling like a giant.

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