It’s the next day and yet you still inspire me to write, sitting here listening to sappy songs at six in the morning thinking about you. It’s the only way I can formulate anything close to the kind words you should get every day. I guess I developed some sort of liking to writing, probably unsurprising considering the amount of time I spend on the internet. The thing is Kiara, I can’t stop thinking about you, about your hair, your eyes, your smile, the joyous feeling of having you in my arms, I haven’t been this inspired in forever.
I want to be with you, embrace you and tell you that I care, brush the hair from your face and wipe away your tears when you cry.
I want to talk to you, tell you that you mean the world to me, try awkwardly to crack a joke in the hopes I could make you laugh that wonderful laugh of yours
I want to hear your harmonious voice, echoing through my head a thousand million times as I try desperately to permanently hold the memories of us together in my head. I want to make you happy, I want to hear you truthfully say that you’re okay, and that you are going to be happy after I leave.
I want to instil in you the belief that I will always try to be there for you, despite the challenges of life or the judgement of people, no matter the size of the problem or the complexity of the issue surrounding it.
I want to catch you when you fall, and help you back up if I wasn’t there when you fell, and I’ll be happy to hold you upright for as long as you need to gain your footing.
I want you to be the happiest girl in school, knowing that you’re the most perfect beautiful joyous beacon of light and hope that I’ve ever seen, knowing that no one compares.
Most of all I want you to read this, and know that behind the screen is a person who isn’t going to give up, isn’t going to replace you, who would never run away, someone who needs you more than anyone else. Someone who knows that you are worth every second of their time. Because you’re so important to me and I’m going to do everything in my power to try and make you happy.