June 9th 2017

June 9th 2017

   I feel so unimportant. It’s not like I’ll do anything great, I’m too much of a coward. It’s not like I’ll do anything great, I’m too much of a coward. I’m not going to do anything great or something. I’m nothing. Nobody sees it either, I can be super happy, but its all a lie. Lies, what is a lie? I’ve been lied to so many times I don’t even know what it is. I just live. I should just end it all. I’m too scared too though. Nobody sees it either, I can be super happy, but its all a lie. Lies, what is a lie? I’ve been lied to so many times I don’t even know what it is. I just live. I should just end it all. I’m too scared too though. I have already been dignosed with BPD, Bipolar, OCD, and some others. It’s not like you’d care. But moving on. I do actually have many friends. But they have no clue about the mentally unsatble Melanie. I have 3 sections of my brain. The biggest section is my alternate universe where I’m happy. Then theres that happy perfect side. And finally there’s the depressed side, another big part. I process things differently. I have a filter. I’m too broken to be fixed.

 

2 thoughts on “June 9th 2017”

  1. I’m sorry you’re feeling like this. You should know that you’re not alone in this, and certainly not too broken to be fixed. You don’t have to do something drastic to change the world, but the world is changed by you being in it. You are worth something. Things will get better.

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