Don’t commit yourself to anything that you are not ready for. Love is not about weighing the pro’s and con’s. I think you would know if you loved a person. It wouldn’t be a question. In my experience love does not grow, you can’t just keep trying harder. It’s there, or its not.
Dependence on a person is a scary thing, a beautiful, scary thing. I want to learn to be alone. To be happy alone. To find comfort alone. Is that just something that comes with age? 21 is when you are supposed to be anything but alone, yet even surrounded by people I feel alone. Such a cliché. But, aren’t we all?