Today is Friday and it’s day number 20! Today was another pretty good day! I’m still feel awkward about feeling happy so often. I just feel like I’m in a new persons body and I’m trying to adjust. In some ways I guess that I feel like a fish out of water.
Who would have ever thought that I’d be trying to get used to being as happy as I feel. It’s very Wierd. I still keep telling people how I feel because it’s exciting to me.
This Morning was sort of rough though. I woke up automatically missing LLS and the Boys. Then I felt bad, guilty and angry with myself for drinking in the past!!! I was really pissed off at myself. So I went for a walk an remembered that I don’t have to worry about the past. Just worry about today.
Work was ok for it being a fish fry night. It was busy – but it was nice to be busy! Went for a mile jog after work too. It was refreshing.
Its odd! I’m happy but I feel guilty for being happy due to what I’ve done while drinking- but they say that goes away.
My friends keep telling me that I’m like a new person. I feel like a better version of myself.