So in the past 2 days I’ve gotten a total of maybe 6 hours of sleep.  I couldn’t sleep again last night for some reason even though I was tired as hell.  Work was brutal yesterday because I was tired too.  I had a mini panic attack when my new crush Tyler was about to come into work.  Then I had an even bigger panic attack when this other guy I’ve been seeing said he was gonna visit me at work around the same time.  I haven’t been able to stop thinking about Tyler and it’s so annoying.  I don’t know what it is, but I haven’t felt this way about someone in a loooooooong time.  He’s just…I dunno I can’t even describe it.  Anyways, good news is that even though we had sex on the first date basically, we’re still talking throughout the whole day.  I really don’t want to like someone this much because it always ends badly but I can’t help it.  It’s the first time I’ve really felt happy in forever!  So yesterday I didn’t even end up seeing him because I left work early and hungout with my other friend who came to visit me.  I was so tired by that time that we just went shopping a little and then went to lunch.  I thought for sure I would pass out as soon as I got home but I ended up being wired and only slept about 3 hours last night.  Also last night the guy I had lunch with asked me to basically be his girlfriend.  He worded it like, “how about we don’t hookup with anyone else?”  It’s only been like a week since we first met.  I told him I can’t make that kind of commitment yet and I’m still really not sure about him.  I mean I like him but not “Tyler” like him.  Anyways I don’t know if it’s the lack of sleep or my high from finally talking to someone I feel something for, but my thoughts are getting jumbled and I gotta get ready for work.  Will update when something interesting happens.

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