I dont even know what to write! I habe so much goin on in my head that i need to get it in order. But im hoping maybe tomorrow i can sit down and write out key points or everything that has been going on. I know i will be writing a lot about my daddy maybe it wil make me feel better if not i may need to go talk to somebody just to let these guilt feelings be out in the open. Yeah i can say them to family members but i dont feel any better i actually feel worst. So idk. I will write more tomorrow and get it more in some kind of order.