[17] ~*Mon – 07/17/17*~

[12:47 pm]

My back is killing me today. I had a really hard time getting myself ready as I could barely stand up. I took four Advil and hope this will help. I’m glad I only have the one client today. The “on call” girl texted me this morning to make sure I had received her message so I was able to sleep in. Good thing cause I only went to bed at like 3 am. 

Today’s supposed to be mowing the lawn day but I have no idea if I’ll be in shape to do it this evening. I might wait tomorrow as I don’t think we have anything planned beside hub having to take the car for an oil change in the morning. 

Now, I don’t know what to do with my hair anymore. I wanted to cut it but today I got it in a ponytail as I finally can make one but on the other hand, I find it too long. So I’m not sure if I’ll be cutting it or just trimming it when I go next week. I wish I could cut it but still make a ponytail but I know that ain’t happening. This is why I always say I will shave my whole head and start wearing wigs. Then I could decide how I want my hair each day. I wish I had the guts to do it. Shaving the underneath was already a big decision which I surprisingly don’t regret. 

Hub did the suggies kitchen when he got home last night. He also already did the one for tonight. I’m really impress with him. I surely hope he keeps it up. 


[4:27 pm]

Man! I just got home, sat in front of the PC to write but laid my head on the desk and almost fell asleep. I’m exhausted for no darn reason. I slept my 8 hrs and only worked 4 so no idea why I suddenly got this tired. I think it might be because I was out in the sun at the water park for an hour although the sun wasn’t there there, I guess it was still there.

I had decided that I could get wet and had brought a change of clothes with me since she was my only client today and could come home afterward. I didn’t want to get my hair wet thought cause then I’d have to use my straightener again. Everything was going fine, I was all wet but my hair was safe until this lil boy took one of the water gun and decided to aim it at me. Of course some of my hair got wet. Bleh! Could of been worse but yea..

Now I’m like super hungry and I don’t know what to do. On my way home I wanted to go get my friend and go out to eat but then I told myself I needed to start saving a bit more money and start eating more at home so I came home but faw, I’m super tired and I don’t want to make myself anything to eat. I could just go to bed right now and it’s not even 5 o’clock, plus I’m off tomorrow. Arg! Always tired when I could sleep in the next day. Today is also mowing the lawn day but like I said before, I really don’t feel like doing it. My back is way better than it was this morning but still.. it’s hot outside and as I just said, I feel exhausted. I feel like eating some baked potatoes so I might do that in the microwave but I don’t know what to eat with it.


[6:17 pm]

OMG! I am fighting myself so bad to not go to bed right now. It’s freaking only 6 pm. The hell is wrong with me?! I’m so disappointing in myself cause I have a feeling I will be heading to bed very soon. I’m watching TV shows and in the back of my head I can hear myself saying “go to bed”. I sorta want to go for a nap but I know that if I do go, I will sleep until tomorrow and blah. Why can’t I feel this tired when I need to work the next morning so then I’d be in bed early and maybe rested for the next day. Nope, gotta be tired when I can actually stay up later and catch up on shows and reading and what ever else I feel like doing. I’m so bleh!


[7:36 pm]

I hate when I feel like being productive but then I feel too tired to do anything. I just did the dishes and swept the floor and kinda felt in the mood to do some cleaning but then I feel too tired to do so. I really feel lazy right now and I don’t like it. I hate that I didn’t mow the lawn. I always feel bad when I just relax, or at least try too. The house could use a lot of cleaning. I can’t keep up! I always work and the house is too big for me to clean. I don’t know what we were thinking when we bought this house. This is when I miss our apartment. That place would always be clean spotless. I don’t know, I just feel like I’m wasting the day away and that I could be doing some things but I just want to sit here and watch shows on the PC. I am about to start watching a movie. I saw the end of this movie at my friend’s last night and it looked really good so I think I’ll be watching it now while playing my farming game. I’m still very exhausted but I’m trying not to go to bed. Part of me really feel like cleaning right now but other part is like “no.. don’t want to do anything.. too tired”. I hope I’ll get some done tomorrow. I want to mow the lawn and vacuum the stairs and carpets tomorrow. I feel like it’s not much but just mowing the lawn is a lot for me. I think the reason why I feel so bad about being lazy right now is because I was supposed to be working and I’m not so technically I wasn’t supposed to be able to relax so really I should take that time to actually be productive at home which I’m not. Bleh!


[9:33 pm]

Yep! Me again! Kinda sad, I keep coming back to write which is sorta pathetic when you think of it cause I’m currently writing every moment of my boring life. I just finished watching the movie, My Stepdaughter, which wasn’t too bad. Guess I shall go back to watching Switched At Birth. I honestly don’t know why I came back to write when I really didn’t have anything to write about.




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