Confessions of an Anonymous Star 7.16 (Slidin’ by Skin-Town)

I’ve realized that there’s a dark…an inescapable torture, I’ll likely always be tormented by. It’s possibly the reason why I’m alone (by choice, or not) so much. Why I find myself being viewed by others as being a people person, while being miserable, both amidst, and outside of the crowd. Why I have so many reasons to be happy right now, but half of me will always find reasons not to be that way…

The irk I’m referring to is likely, just, me. My foe, is patience & fortitude, and the elongated hallway that it encompasses my journey with…

I really don’t have anyone, yet I believe that I will way too hard to have someone. So all these preconceived dreams, prophecies, and intuitive nudges, as I sit alone, most of the time, are my true reality. I am alone…It’s really the only time I’m able to truly try to be comfortable. After the mediation, media checks, and self mantras, there’s, empty…

I was actually able to afford the expensive diet I eat, and business seems to be evolving successfully. The meeting today that did n’t happen, still gave me money, and it proved how strong I had gotten. The gym was the usual. Nobodies around a somebody who really just tries to get my workout done as enjoyable and efficient as possible. Tomorrow I will have to do Yoga. It’s just that time. The look & feel of not being able to get too comfortable, was indeed a more solemn episode of my 24 hours…

The film chic I met got into my thoughts today, but I kinda asked for it. I should’ve never gone on Instagram. It’s funny, she did n’t publicize her marriage as we first courted. She’s kinda hot, but not someone I would actually tell others I’m seeing. I dunno, maybe if we were working a project together, we would talk more. I may just delete her, but truth be told, I’ve kinda grown past that. Plus, a lot of times, it’s me telling myself things, that are negative, that give me so much pain. That’s the dark I constantly deal with. 

Perhaps the true demon I’m duelin’ with is, me…

P.S. I have a pic that two of my fans sent me, but the Macbook & this app are being b*****s…

Lust for Life by Drake

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