So, things still haven’t gotten better. I thought that they might be and I was ready to take a big step in trusting my boyfriend. I leave for work last night and I get there and it’s canceled, so I go home. I tried texting him and asking if he was awake but I got no text back. So i get home and find him doing something he shouldn’t be doing. He lied many times and tried to cover it up but when he realized I wasn’t falling for it he told me the truth. I felt good about leaving him home alone for the night and i was wrong. Now i have no idea what to do. This is the second big lie I caught him in this month. Do i say fuck the last 3 and a half years and leave or find a way to fix it and move past it. Everytime I try he lies and hurts me again. I’m really upset and down this time because we were planning to buy a house out of state together. I cant help but feel like im not good enough anymore and hes tired of being with the same person. He shows me no love or respect. We go all day without even kissing each other. Im at the point where its not worth it to me. This decision is just hard because we been through so much. Not sure when enough is enough. 

2 thoughts on “Lost”

  1. Hey girl i’m going to try and help you. He seems like a dick. If he really cared about you he wouldn’t do that to you. You seem really hurt and like you have wasted 3 years on this asshole and i’m not trying to be a bitch about this or anything but you need to tell him how it is. If he doesn’t start showing you love and affection then you are leaving his dumb ass . U seem like such a loving and kind person. I know how it feels to put so much time and effort and love into someone and just get treated you like are shit. Keep your head up girl.

  2. He’s constantly checking out other people and my sisters. I never feel good enough. He has gotten so much worse. This is just so hard to make the decision to leave. I wanna be happy again.

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