So, things still haven’t gotten better. I thought that they might be and I was ready to take a big step in trusting my boyfriend. I leave for work last night and I get there and it’s canceled, so I go home. I tried texting him and asking if he was awake but I got no text back. So i get home and find him doing something he shouldn’t be doing. He lied many times and tried to cover it up but when he realized I wasn’t falling for it he told me the truth. I felt good about leaving him home alone for the night and i was wrong. Now i have no idea what to do. This is the second big lie I caught him in this month. Do i say fuck the last 3 and a half years and leave or find a way to fix it and move past it. Everytime I try he lies and hurts me again. I’m really upset and down this time because we were planning to buy a house out of state together. I cant help but feel like im not good enough anymore and hes tired of being with the same person. He shows me no love or respect. We go all day without even kissing each other. Im at the point where its not worth it to me. This decision is just hard because we been through so much. Not sure when enough is enough.