When you wake up in the morning what is the first thing you do? Do you go directly into the bathroom and start your make up process and your hair? Or do you lay in bed for that extra 10 minutes to decide how the day is going to go? I know I am the one who lays there and hopes and prays that nothing bad is going to happen. That today is going to be the day I’ll be strong enough to smile all day long and not lose my footing.
I always tell myself tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow is going to be better, and usually that is not the case.
I wish there was a way to give someone else access to your brain and let them know exactly how you are feeling and doing. Most of the time I don’t want to be honest with anyone and actually tell them. Will they think I am broken or damaged? Will they feel sorry for me? I don’t want either of those so I go on and continue life like nothing is wrong.
They say your best friend is the one you can talk to about anything.. I struggle with that. I’m afraid to let anyone know the real me. Would they like me? Would they want to hang out with me still? I wish I knew the answers to these questions.
For now the thoughts continue… Till next time.