so a minor foot skid has turned into this whole big thing with my back. it hurts. fuck.

and aside from yesterday, i haven’t slept much daily. yesterday was a medicated fluke. so it didn’t feel like it counted.

and terra cotta pots with dirt/rock filling get heavy. as is bagged gravel. but i got everything moved out of the potential rain. fuck it hurts.

why do i keep pushing myself to this point.

i thought about posting this to a chronic pain forum but what would they tell me that i haven’t read a thousand times. ‘i want to share with like minded individuals!’. replies would be ‘same’ ‘hugs’ ‘have you tried yoga?’ ‘ice packs now!’ ‘heat packs now!’ ‘have someone help you move things!’ ‘take care of yourself first’.

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