June 26th 2017

I’ve kept a physical journal since the beginning of this year, but I’ve decided it was time for a bit of a change. So here I am, I suppose. I’m kind of nervous, even though it’s completely anonymous. Hi, I’m 14, I’m a student, I’m pansexual, and I know that these are just basic things about me, but I’ll get to some other things later in other journals.

I didn’t do much today, after all, other than go shopping. But it was good to actually get out of the house for once. I got my test scores back today from last school year’s end of year exams, which were alright, but I hoped for one of my scores to be a little higher. 

I’m generally an awkward person, so when I get texts from unknown numbers I tend to not ask who they are: maybe I just find it rude. They asked about an upcoming school event that I’m going to. I answered them, just like the last time when they asked about school schedules. Maybe one of my friends know who they are, I haven’t asked yet. Been drawing a lot lately, trying to get things off my mind. Lots of anxiety and hiding things from people, like my sexuality, and occasional panic attacks. I’ve never really told anyone about the panic attacks except for my best friend, who’s name is Zoey (I’ll say her name because she doesn’t mind,) and one person who made me have a panic attack once, but we’ve made up since then. I think I’ve lost friends over the summer, whether I like it or not. Luckily, I didn’t really like a couple of them, as they’ve been awful to me many times before. But some of them, I do kind of miss.

I don’t really know what to write here, as my life isn’t that interesting, just a lot of sadness, loneliness, and awkwardness. I’ll give it a shot, though.


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