Yes I know. I totally know how it feels. I know how painful it is to the point of having chest pains where breathing becomes excruciating.
I know what it’s like losing 4kgs in a week for not being able to eat even if I wanted to because my body won’t accept solid food. I know what it’s like to cry myself to sleep. I lose all desires to do anything because I’m too deep in pain that I cannot think of anything else but to stop my heart from breaking.
All those years of putting up with you believing somewhere deep down inside, there is a respectable man who could lead me have ended.
I felt betrayed. I questioned my worth and can’t even look at myself in the mirror. I was asking myself if the monster inside me is that so bad for you to do such an agonizing thing.
But I am thankful. I am so close to getting married to you but I am thankful I did not end up with you. I am thankful that I was freed and spared from a lifelong unhappiness. I am thankful that I saw a better life ahead of me without you.