I’ve been a nervous wreck for awhile now. I have 16 more days until I can even refill my pills. Work has been hell and the hours go by so slowly. I dread going into work now. Not like I used to like it before but now it’s just unbearable. I have about 4 or 5 days until things get back to “normal” at work. I saw Tyler the other night. We finally had sex again. It’s actually kind of nice to wait and then get all worked up when I finally see him again. The next morning we went to Sf. I couldn’t relax the entire time. Between me being nervous about what to say and just being in the chaotic Sf in general, I was just too nervous to even be excited. The only time I really relaxed was when I had a little bit of a beer. He’s just way too good looking. I’ve never been with someone who I was this attracted to and it makes me nervous. This is just silly. I just need to get my shit together. Somehow. I have work today and over the weekend I have shit hours so I won’t be doing much…including seeing Tyler. I guess it’ll be good to get my head straight and not worry about it for awhile. Ugh, I’m a mess.