Sooooo, I’m attempting to start another journal again. I’ve tried physical ones you buy and I would write a couple of days and then another year rolls around and I decide I need to start again. This is my second online diary I’ve tried.
I need a hobby. I need something else to do with myself when I come home from work other than watch youtube videos and pin on pinterest. I work at a daycare and I’m home sick today…….surprise surprise, with something else I’ve caught from my kiddos.
Maybe I should spend more time with my husband?
I’m thankful for what I have in my life: a husband who is faithful and adores me; family on both my side and his that cares for me; a job that pays the bills, food on the table and roof over our heads. We haven’t had to struggle much so far in our first year of marriage.
However, there are many aspects of my life that I’m not happy with: my insecurities; my lack of any close friends who invite me to hang out; my weight and my health issues; my husband and I are following in my parents footsteps and are spending our time at home separately on our own computers. While we make enough to get by, there is very little wiggle room. My addiction to sugar. My lack of drive to change my bad habits. The fact that, at 26 years old, I’ve already lost both my parents to cancer.
I’m not sure where to go next in life.