I woke up before 7 this morning. It is 8:17 now. I am dressed for my walk. I am going to head out shortly. I have been listening to Silent Spring the past few walks, but it seems like it is only a list of “this one time such and such chemical was used, X number of people dead as a result”. Over and over. I don’t know what I expected from it, but more than that. I enjoyed listening to the Ted talks, but I don’t see any more I want to hear. That was why I decided to shell out $27 for the audio book. I’m not sure if I want to do the $15 a month audio books from Amazon. Maybe. I’m still considering it. I am currently paying $15 a month for HBO go. I am going to cancel that when GOT is over for the season. I would have just waited until all the episodes were up and only paid for one month and saw it all, but there are so many assholes online that post spoilers that they would have ruined it for me. I cancelled my Hulu by accident. When I got a new credit card, I didn’t update my info there, so my account was closed. My mother has it, though, and I can watch hers. All I use it for is to watch Seinfeld over and over. That show is such a masterpiece I never get tired of it. I catch things all the time that I’d not noticed before. Kramer said “Martinized”, and I’d never picked up on that until this time through. It is just so well-written and clever that you cannot possibly catch everything only watching it once.
I went to the dermatologist yesterday. I don’t even know why I went. I got nothing out of it. The wait was crazy and the doc spent about 30 seconds with me. That was a waste of $30. Today I have a dentist appointment. I am getting a cavity filled. I can’t tell you the last time I had a cavity. I hope it’s an easy process. I am supposed to meet another Bumble BFF person this evening.
I dreamed about Edward again last night. That seems to happen fairly often these days. In my dream, he had planned a place/time for us to get married. His mother saw the paperwork and began fussing about it. Then my mom showed up where we were and Joann began complaining to her about it. Joann was the one that told me not to marry him until he got his college degree. Oh well. Losing him was one of the top 10 worst mistakes I ever made. I loved him so. I will never have anything that special again in my life. One of the million things that makes me hate myself.