I haven’t been feeling well at all the past few days…my appetite has completely disappeared and I’m always just so tired…I feel very flat and with no energy. I wonder what’s wrong this time 🙁 When you have an infant you don’t have time to be ill, I just want it to go away whatever it is. My mum says I should go and see a doctor but urgh my faith in doctors and any medic have just crashed into oblivion. They’re all still humans at the end of the day and nobody is perfect, they can still be as rubbish as the rest of us can be. Ok I’m being a bit harsh but I know what I mean. Just have no patience and every day I seem to have a headache 🙁 August is usually a bad month for me anyway, a lot of bad things have happened in August and even if I try to stay positive my mood plummets anyway in this month, it almost scares me. Autumn seems to be a bad time for me too but I don’t think it’s that seasonal depression thing that a lot of people can suffer from…no that isn’t it though a lot of people suggest it to me.
I just try to think of the positives and try to remember that I do seem to think things are a lot worse than they actually are. Harry is ok- that’s the biggest positive. I’m looking after him every day and he’s fine, a health visitor describes him as thriving so that must be good! And although Harry is very naughty I think it is just his age and really he’s so sweet. A few times a day he hugs me and goes ‘aww mama…’ in a very sweet way and he strokes the tops of my arms at the same time 🙂 He still sleeps in my bed with me, that hasn’t changed yet. And he still breastfeeds to go to sleep. That’s another positive…I still breastfeed him and he’s nearly 26 months! It’s good for him, lots of health benefits.