Friday, August 11th 2017
Technically it’s the day after, but I was so exhausted that I didn’t write yesterday’s entry.
Today was a special day at work. Before what made it special, I got angry at my partner yet again. There is this guy who got fired last year that came back, since his father works there, but he got fired since he was lazy. He was working with a female partner and at some point my partner saw how lazy the guy was being, and said “A man should always work harder than a woman, right?” to the guy. The guy said he agreed, but when we returned to our station, he asked me the same question. I said “Well, a woman can work harder if she wants.” He said “But the guy was being so lazy.” I responded “Yes, but don’t have to bring gender into it.” Then the guy I eat lunch with came along with his partner, and my partner pointed out the guy being lazy and said his statement once again, but then pointed out “She says what I said was sexist, but he was being so lazy.” I shot in a “I didnt say he wasn’t being lazy, I’m just saying-” But I got cut off and I gave up. My lunch partner saw, but he ended up agreeing with my partner. I’m not sure if he agreed out of the awkwardness of the situation cause he left right after, but still. I was just really pissed at my partner for a long time, repeating this in my head over and over : “A woman can work harder than a man if she wants, as long as both are being productive. If the man works harder than the woman, then good on him, but it shouldn’t be because he feels the need to work harder than a woman. Whether someone wants to work harder or not shouldn’t be because of the other person’s sex, but for own personal reasons. I’m not saying the guy wasn’t lazy, he was, but bringing sex into this was totally unnecessary.” I wanted to tell him that so much, but I was so preoccupied with trying not to cry, that I couldn’t. Being angry and crying are linked for me, which is so fustrating. It’s something I’ve been working on for all my life, and it makes it very difficult to bring a point across without crying and taking all the attention away from my point.
Anyway, what did make the day special, was that the company was celebrating 25 years of working at the company for two employees. There was free pizza and cake, but the cake was the cheap one with the gross grey in the middle (what even is that, seriously, it tastes like glue). Instead I got a KitKat from the vending machine. But our lunch break was one hour instead of 25 minutes. We didn’t work as much on the afternoon, but that’s cause we had to wait another hour in the morning for lunch, so we worked 5 hours straight instead of 4. We were all starving, since we usually get hungry by 9:30-10:00, and we only at at 12:15.
At home I played a lot of Batman, then watched a couple of episodes of Supernatural before being so exhausted, I just went to bed and instantly fell asleep.
That’s all for today.