I haven’t written in a while but I guess I’ll give a short update on where I am in life.
I feel like a fuck up. I thought I was getting better and happier, but truth is, I’m not. I don’t deserve to live, I really don’t. But god knows I would never do anything to myself, because I’m a coward.
I always seem to disappoint people and I’m sick of it. I just lost 2 friends because of how selfish I am. Sure, they were somewhat toxic friendships but I can’t help but regret so much.
My head was up my ass so far that I couldn’t see that the other person was hurting in the friendship. I’d attempt to fix it, but it’s too late. There’s really no turning back at this point.
My intentions are never meant to hurt anyone. I just have a hard time coping with my emotions and they get taken too far. Although, you can only say sorry so much.