Why oh why?! I had a dream about my husband leaving me, once again. I was trying to make him stay but he didn’t wanted too. I asked him if he still loved me and he said yes. So why want to leave?! I don’t understand why I keep having these dreams and they are killing me. I woke up with tears in my eyes while my husband was sleeping by my side. I wanted to wake him up so he could comfort me but didn’t since he went to bed super late. He should be up right now, getting ready to leave for the day but he didn’t get up when I did 10 mins ago. That’s okay since I’m using the bathroom right now and not to get ready as I should but to write. I’m just really tired of that kind of dream and would like to know the meaning of it. It just breaks my heart all the time and I wish I could stop.
Before bed I wrote that I’d prob dream about losing my teeth since I haven’t in ages and had talked about it. I didn’t but I don’t know what’s worse. Losing all your teeth or having the love of your life not wanting to be with you anymore. But in those dreams that I have about him wanting to break up, there’s always a weird thing going on where I should know it’s a dream. This time, my car was parked at his parents in the backyard (for some reason) beside a deck or fence and somehow some water flooded that area and my car was full of water and our stuff was still in the car so everything basically got soaked. That was just something random. Well really the dream started where we were in a store and we parted ways. Then we were both at his parents but hub got there a day after me or something. He was then telling me he had made a mistake and didn’t want to leave but that he couldn’t call me the day before cause he didn’t have his cell and was walking in a cemetery which didn’t have a phone. Huh?! I was like “this is too much heartache, maybe we should go our separate ways” but we ended up making out. Dreams are just fucked up! I know when I look at it it’s not realistic but I still would very much so stop dreaming about it. Why can’t I ever dream about being a fairy?!
Gosh, it’s 10:50 and I’m still siting here typing away when I should be getting dress and all. I also need to get hub out of bed. I had told my friend we’d be leaving around 11 so I have 10 mins to get ready.
Hope I have a good and forget about that stupid dream although I wrote about it so it’s here to stay unless I decide to delete it.
Anyways.. Let’s get ready. Dentist better be good and no bad news or more work needing to be done than I already know about.