I Need to Run Away

   I’m not sure where to start. My name is Emily. I’m 19 years old, soon to be 20 in December. I’ve graduated high school and am now doing College online. I’m majoring in Zoology to become an Animal Rescue Expert. I have a pretty nice job, I love my boyfriend, my mom and I are still together, my dad and I are getting along better than ever. Things are going pretty darn well. So then why do I always feel uneasy? Why does no where ever seem to feel like home? I’ve been this way since I was little. I never feel right anywhere. I always have this urge to just up and leave. I don’t want to leave the people or places in my life, but at the same time I do. I don’t know how to explain it. It’s like a feeling of NEEDING to run away. Long car rides help sometimes. Going on adventures, exploring, they all help me to feel a little better. But how do I stop feeling like this? How do I teach myself to feel at home? And why do I feel like this? All the time, no matter where I am. I always want to get out, leave, escape. I’m not claustrophobic, crowds and people don’t really bother me. It’s the actual place itself. If I’m ever in a location for too long I get edgy. At home, stores, school, work. I never want to be in one place more than a few times and I don’t understand why. The only way I can think to explain how I feel is to just simply say “I need to run away”. 

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