I’m angry. Like randomly angry. Cruel. I get horrible thoughts of hurting my dog. I’ve come close to it sometimes. He doesn’t deserve that. He’s just there being vulnerable. Sometimes I feel like kicking him until I hear his ribs crack. Other times I want to make him angry so he bites me. I’m not ok. I’m not even mad at him. It’s all these pent up emotions just want to burst out in a horrible way. I’ve taken up skateboarding as a distraction from it. It’s helped with my friend being around too. He’s a great distraction from the thoughts in my head.

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