I’ve been pretty happy today. A couple things didn’t turn out like I wanted them to, but I was ok with it. Yeah I was a little upset although the feeling was actually quite minor. This is a big step for me. I’m usually very upset when things don’t go my way. When I’m not in control. So the fact that I was able to be fine today after expecting things to go one way but then having them go another is wonderful news to me! I was talking with my friend about skateboarding and asking him why he does it. His reasons were interesting. He asked me in return and I had to think about it for a bit. I realized I did it because it made me focus on myself in a way I’ve never focused on myself before. I have to be in the moment or else I’ll fall on my ass. I’m daydreaming all the time and when I’m skateboarding I’m back in reality. I feel more grounded to it. It’s helped me a lot recently and it makes me happy to see that I’m becoming more aware of myself.
I'm growing. With every entry. With everything I read. Obviously. Like everyone else. I"m selfish. I hate the word but I am. I try not to be. I've found this website to be a great emotional outlet for the few times that I've written on here. Enjoy the jumbled mess.