Here we go. So many “Day 1″‘s lately. Its frustrating. Trying to make life change is hard. But here I am, trying again. Started the day right, a quick walk, yoga, meditation, reading the Big Book, journaling. So far so good. I will maintain a One Day at a Time mentality. I will be abstinent today, no matter what happened yesterday, or what will happen tomorrow. Tomorrow my mom is coming to Charleston. It is also a meeting day, I will have to tell her, I need to tell someone. I know she will be encouraging, it will also be a stand against my constant shame. This is something I can do, and I must do. God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can’t change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. I will continue to focus on serenity and making small changes, instead of trying to fix past problems which only creates more problems and more anxiety.