Listening to Mom by Broox. This entire song has been me for the past 6 years. I’m sorry I was so self absorbed that I didn’t realize how much time had passed since I’ve been gone. I know I’ve visited every now and again without talking to you much. I’m sorry. I want to talk with you. I want to tell you how sorry I am that I left and stopped talking to you. I still don’t understand how much I hurt you by doing that. I can’t imagine how much it must hurt you. I feel so guilty for being so mean. You’ve apologized to me so much for things you’ve done and you’ve asked for my forgiveness. I’ve forgiven you mom. I’m asking for you to forgive me now. I miss you. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have left. I shouldn’t have disappeared from your life without letting you know that I was ok. Especially for that first year. I’m sorry to my brother too and to my dad. I’m sorry I left everyone. I’m sorry I was so angry with everyone. I’m sorry I was so immature. I’m sorry for not being what you would have liked me to be. I’m sorry for a lot. I hope that with me moving back in we can talk and I hope you guys can forgive me. I know we talk on the phone more now. We’re sweet enough to each other but I really want to talk with you guys and lay it all out. I miss you guys so much. I’m finally feeling homesick after so long. I love you guys. You’ll also get to see how big of a crybaby I’ve become and have a good laugh!
I'm growing. With every entry. With everything I read. Obviously. Like everyone else. I"m selfish. I hate the word but I am. I try not to be. I've found this website to be a great emotional outlet for the few times that I've written on here. Enjoy the jumbled mess.