Thursday September 21st

I am not well this morning. I don’t have school today. I slept until after 8am. They is some kind of construction going on outside and the noise is driving me crazy. I am starting to have the withdrawal sypmptoms from not having my medicine. I don’t know why my insurance didn’t go through. I have to go see about that today. I need to get up and get going soon. I have a doctor appointment with the lung doctor at 2pm. I don’t remember making it. Ugh. I need to go to the post office, the pharmacy and check on the medicine problem and walk at the park. I haven’t heard from my mother in days. I texted her on Sunday when I was really freaking out and said are you busy. She called me and when she realized I was freaking out she “had to go” and would call me later. Now it’s Thursday and she still hasn’t called. That’s what happens when I try to lean on her for support. She bugs me to be be in my life over and over, and then I give in and try to reach out for help and poof. She knew I was crying and freaking out and yet no sign of her. Nice. I have no thereapist.  don’t have anyone to talk to about my problems. I don’t know what to do. I am scared, freaking out, overwhelmed. My job is killing me. I cannot keep up. I am about to lose my mind. I have no one to care. 

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