Fresh Start

I’m at a different space in my life right now. I finally realized that accepting things for what they are is the best thing to do. I’ve been struggling with trying to find the attention that I Thought I needed from others in order to live a better life. I found myself relying on others to make me happy. I couldn’t even see that I wasn’t putting myself first. I’ll admit that I go far and beyond for others. Even when it’s not asked, even when it’s not returned back, Even when it’s not appreciated, etc. It’s second nature for me, but it honestly has to change. For now on the only time that I’ll go above and beyond for someone is when they want it from me. Until then, the only person I’m going to give all of my attention to is Dor. I’m definitely still learning, but trust and believe! I’m not the same person that I was a month ago. I’m more calm. I’m sleeping more. I’m not wasting my time. I’m not an over thinker as much as I used to be. That was the main thing that I used to do. I used to over think about everything that passed me. What I had to realize was that if something is meant for me, then it’ll be meant for me. If something belongs to me, then overthinking shouldn’t even be an option. I speak my mind a lot now. I used to be so afraid to speak about how I felt. Truth is I don’t give a f*ck about what others think of me or what they have to say anymore. My old ways are behind me and my new ways are expanding. I’m staying this way and I mean it this time. ~DoR

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