I hate how thoughtless and careless you are sometimes. Last night you demanded and you got, but you didn’t appreciate how difficult it was for me, or how hard I tried for you. You were annoyed at me for not doing well enough, and the ‘good girl’s stopped as soon as I couldn’t continue.
I told you how I felt this morning, and you gave a toneless apology; then proceeded to do exactly the same thing again. You made me feel guilty for something that I couldn’t control, and I felt worse than if I hadn’t tried in the first place. I wish I had said no, but I didn’t want to. I wanted to please you, but clearly didn’t. Again.
I asked you for one thing, at a time that was convenient to you. But my pain relief is less important than other things, obviously.
I wish I could say no, but I don’t want to.