Well, I hate being a person that always has to hold herself high. People will step on me if I don’t keep my head held high. Today, I texted this boy I have a crush on, more like a special person,but I tried telling him how I feel. Well, he never texted me back. Maybe he doesn’t like me. i am trying really hard to keep myself together, but sometimes I feel that I force him to talk to me. Maybe I should continue with my life and stop. I should think about myself for a change. I try to keep my cool when I see you “flirting” with other girls, but I know I am nothing to you. Maybe I wish I could be. Maybe I can be proud for n=being your girlfriend if I was one.
I don’t like going to church. I feel forced. I know that I shouldn’t but I can’t keep up with all the rules. I tried to keep my cool today, but I got angry. I finally said that I didn’t. Next thing you know, I still have to go.
School is stressing me out. I try to keep up with AP, but I feel like people make me feel less in that class. They think they are smarter than me. You know what, I don’t care what they think. They can think about being so damn smart, but yet they have no character. They act as robots towards a person. I used to be one of them. I think i still am. At least though, I am no trying to show off how smart I am, even though everyone is smart in their own way. I think everyone has the potential to be smart; they are already smart. The only thing to do is:
- Be myself, who cares what people think
- Don’t try to be like everyone else
- Loosen up and keep myself calm
- Don’t pat attention to what other people think
- Sometimes, it’s okay to say how we feel
How I wish romance was like this in real life…