Ok me, you’ve been feeling shitty for a while now and frankly I’m getting sick of it. Move on. She’s moved on. I know it hurts that she moved on so quickly when you’re still feeling the pain of love, but you really need to stop thinking about her now. It’s not healthy for you. You’re hurting yourself over someone who is gone now. Stop looking back with longing. Yeah, back then was beautiful with the looks and the feelings, but quit looking at the past with rose colored glasses on. There were a lot of shitty moments too. There are good reasons you aren’t with her anymore. As much as you love her she wasn’t the greatest for you. The best yeah. Greatest no. Besides she was right, you weren’t ready for a relationship as much as you would have liked but you gave it a chance and be proud of yourself for stepping out of your comfort zone as much as you did. You had a good run with someone you genuinely adored with all your heart. You got hurt deeply and it’s ok. You took your time to be sad, but I have to say that you should really stop it now. Give yourself the space you need and be with yourself. Date yourself dammit you want some love and you’ve got a lot of love to give why not give it to yourself from now on? In the end you’re small and insignificant compared to the vastness of the universe and so is everyone else you know. So quit thinking about her. It’s time to move on. Please.
I'm growing. With every entry. With everything I read. Obviously. Like everyone else. I"m selfish. I hate the word but I am. I try not to be. I've found this website to be a great emotional outlet for the few times that I've written on here. Enjoy the jumbled mess.