I read through a lot of other journals on this site. I didn’t realize there are so many other people hurting. It made me sad, so many people reaching out, asking for help anonymously. I am glad I am in a program now. I still struggle to really accept I have a problem, but as I am telling more people that I am going, I feel like it is becoming my reality. I am glad people close to me know now, I have more accountability now. And I am reaching out in the group more, I want to make friends who understand what I have, normal people have no idea. It’s only day two, but I am making myself change directions, this isn’t the same old “I’ll never do that again”, its not “I can just tough it out”. I need help, support, accountability, and now I am reaching out. God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.