The drug kind of life

It’s been a little over a week since my hermitude status.  I really did nothing but stay in bed and watch tv and eat and feel sorry for myself.  Eventually I had plans to go out on Friday night to a haunted house with Gregory and somehow Gina tagged along.  It all started with her worrying about me because I wasn’t my usual self and she knew I was out of pills so she gave me a little extra of what she had to get me through the week.  I figured since she did that for me I might as well invite her out with us.  It was the first time she met Gregory but he was so her type.  She was being extra flirtatious and I wasn’t mad because I am really over him.I was still kind of anxious so it was hard for me to relax with the two of them there even with my pills.  The haunted houses were alright.  They weren’t as scary as previous years but I suspect it’s because they didn’t have that many actors.  A lot of the rooms in the houses seemed empty.  It’s sad, I guess Halloween is starting to become more and more unimportant each year.  It was still fun and I’m glad I at least did one thing Halloween related.  Saturday I had to work but with the help of my pills my friend gave me, it went by super fast.  Sunday I had the day off (finally!) and I went with Gina to the goodwill and we just hungout after that.  It was a relaxing day.  Then a few days after that I hungout with Anthony again.  We didn’t do anything really but have sex.  I was on my period so it wasn’t all that great for me.  I’m slowly starting to come out of my hermit mode but it’s still really hard for me to get up in the morning and do anything and I don’t get my refills until Friday.  It’s just hard to do anything without my pills.  I’ve become so dependent on them.  Anyways, I’m kind of at a loss of what to do with myself now.  I’m kind of just going with the flow and not forcing anything.  If I don’t go out I could care less and if I do go out I could care less.  There’s really nothing motivating me anymore to do much of anything.  Other than that there isn’t much else going on.  Too bad this month isn’t as fun as I had hoped it would be because all the other months pretty much suck to me. 

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