I don’t want to do the 12 steps. I’ve done step one, and I don’t understand how recognizing this as an issue is not enough to stop doing it. I don’t want to go to meetings on evenings I just want to be at home. I don’t want to have to read books about this thing I hate when I could be watching tv. I don’t want to call people I don’t know and make conversations about this. I don’t want to accept that at 26 I’m going to have to make time for this for the rest of my life. I don’t want to have to change who I am and grow as a person, and realize that I’m not as great as I thought I was. I don’t want to accept that the world does not revolve around me, and my life does not revolve around me. I don’t want to get a sponsor and accept that I am not enough and I can’t do this alone. I don’t want to turn people down for events and social experiences because at times I am not strong enough. I don’t want to keep this bottled up and I don’t want to tell anybody. I don’t want accept that I have this problem and nothing can ever change that.