I just listened to a song that I used to play over and over again during the summer.  It reminds me of Tyler.  It also reminds me of when I used to go on my over an hour long hiking trips and random trips to Monterey.  I miss those days.  I wasn’t exactly happy then either though, I was mostly lost but at least the hiking and beach helped somewhat.  Now I feel like a prisoner because I still haven’t figured out my driving situation.  I’ve been super depressed lately and spent all day in bed yesterday.  It was nice having dreams and a little bit of an escape from reality.  I do miss Tyler sometimes.  I hate that it didn’t work out between us because I did have hope that he could be the person I spent a good part of my life with.  Now I just feel like I’m at the bottom of a well and I can’t seem to claw my way out or even want to try.  It just seems like everything has been going downhill since last year.  It just never ends. 

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