I just listened to a song that I used to play over and over again during the summer. It reminds me of Tyler. It also reminds me of when I used to go on my over an hour long hiking trips and random trips to Monterey. I miss those days. I wasn’t exactly happy then either though, I was mostly lost but at least the hiking and beach helped somewhat. Now I feel like a prisoner because I still haven’t figured out my driving situation. I’ve been super depressed lately and spent all day in bed yesterday. It was nice having dreams and a little bit of an escape from reality. I do miss Tyler sometimes. I hate that it didn’t work out between us because I did have hope that he could be the person I spent a good part of my life with. Now I just feel like I’m at the bottom of a well and I can’t seem to claw my way out or even want to try. It just seems like everything has been going downhill since last year. It just never ends.