I’ve never done so much of an online journal and frankly, I don’t know where to begin or to even what to say. I guess for starters you can see that right now that I’m not feeling in the best way possible. I feel like such a downer. Well, maybe downer is not the word, maybe screw up? I just feel like right now the world is going against me. Especially, with my mom. Maybe I shouldn’t choose to be a criminal justice major. I should’ve gone to be the brain surgeon my mom wanted me to be and attend the best top medical school there is. Maybe by then, she will be able to brag about me to her so-called friends. Instead, she’s embarrassed what I chose to study. I don’t even know what to do anymore. I guess I just wanted to be understood at some level. But for now, I’m ok with bottling in my emotions.