To quote my fave musician – “so much to say, so much to say, so much to say…..”
I’m in a funk.
Been so long since I’ve written. Still missing OD – it was easy – because I was used to it. This is more cumbersome but I suppose like anything else, would be easier if I used it more.
So what’s on my mind…..
I still “stalk” him from time to time. He has posted pics of him and his wife. Which is how it should be. But it stings a little. Takes that little thread of hope and wonder away. Which is a good thing. I just need to process it. That’s the hard part.
Sister – managing her cancer.
Dad – knee replacement
Uncle – passed away
Mom – spent Thanksgiving in the hospital with back pain
Christmas – I don’t like it.
50 – it’s here. Why do I care? Do I care? It’s a milestone. I’m healthy. I should be happy.
Kids – wonderful, awesome kids. I don’t want them to grow up. But they are – right before my eyes.
Husband – I want more from him