There’s a deep creative drive in me that’s been starving for attention. Connecting with others digitally and beyond seemed to be easier in years past. Years past, when I was in my youth and when emotion flooded from my fingertips.
Now, as a 35 year old mother, wife and professional, I find myself feeling burnt out and starving for some type of connection. Not just a connection, but a deep connection with others who think and feel.. and who understand. Understand what I am feeling.. what my heart is screaming.
There is more to me than what I have become. Life has piled one expectation and demand on me.. and as it has, I feel less of what I used to be. I used to be passionate, interesting, interestingly emotional and intuitive. Today, I feel as though I am incapable of being intriguing and incapable of truly connecting with others. I put on my professional face and be who I think I am supposed to be. I am quiet, reserved, awkward and.. difficult to connect with.
Last year around this time, I felt this deep longing to connect with someone.. I just wanted a friend. A friend who I can share things with, who can encourage me or tell me how it is.. who can be there when I just need someone. Someone to look forward to talking with.. just someone. A friend. A friend who is not my husband, who is not a co-worker, who is not a judging person.. just a friend.. another person who wants to connect.
So, where does a 35 year old female.. who is married.. who has kids.. find a connection with a friend or friends? Maybe, hopefully.. this is a good place to start.