I was with him for six years. Six whole years. Yes, we had our bad times, but we had our good times. On wednesday I could feel in my gut that something wasn’t right. Like something was going to go wrong. I had the worst anxiety. I knew something bad was going to happen. I was right.
Wednesday night I come home from class, and he still isn’t home. I think, “OK, he’s just out with friends because I was at school.”
He comes home and sits on the couch. “I’m moving to Florida” comes out of his mouth. I sit there in shock and I couldn’t figure out what words to say. I just say “you’re joking right? What about us?” “I just don’t love you the way you’re supposed to love someone when you’re together for this long.”
Broken. My whole world came crashing down. He tells me he’s leaving in a month and there’s nothing that’ll change his mind, but he’ll live with me until then. One month. One whole month where I have to constantly live in agony wondering if he’s really going, or if he’ll change his mind and won’t do it. He told his family he was and he told his friends. I was the last to know. I say, “what if I go with you, we’ll start a new life together just me and you.” “That won’t work and you know it.”
Shattered. My life as I knew it was over. The man I spent the last six years with was abandoning me and moving down to Florida because he wasn’t happy and this was a once in a lifetime chance for him.
I’m angry, hurt, broken, confused and so sad that I don’t know how I have any more tears left in me. I tell my parents, my brother, my best friend and they’re all in complete and utter shock. They don’t believe it. Well, neither do I. How am I supposed to live with the man I thought was the love of my life and the man I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with knowing he’s leaving me forever next month? How am I going to go on with life. How is this even happening to me? To us? We were the couple that everyone turned to when they went through breakups, now im the one trying to find peace and comfort in the words of friends.
What do I do? How do I ment this broken heart. How do I accept of the worst that’s yet to come?