Why does it feel as if my entire life I have been unloved and alone? Even in my family, I have always felt as if I did not belong to with them. Which is probably why I have never tried to hang with any of my family and why I don’t have any friends. Some people would call me a loner but you would to if you had to grow up the way I did. My brothers, sisters and my cousin that my mom took in when she was three had a great childhood. I’m the throwaway child, the forgotten one and the sad thing about it is that it is that way with my dad as well. So instead of going to therapy, I am going to used this site to deal with the issues I have in my life. I have also decided to make this journal public so everybody can read it and comment on it. I am going to be as honest as I can be about everything. I only hope that I will begin to heal from everything that has in my life. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment God Bless.