Have you every wondered who you are and what your purpose is?
How and why you make the choices you choose to make?
Finally, have you put so much pressure on yourself to succeed at something that you end up messing up and letting people down in the process.?
If you have answered yes to any of these questions. Welcome to my world.
For 31 years I’ve always walked to the beat of my own drum in life. Never was a follower, always would make my own lane and keep to myself. I was never the kid to be about the “norm”.
I write this message today just to vent slightly about who I have become and why I consider my life so far to be sub par. Its tough when you are genuinely good person, but you know that you have hurt so many people and haven’t lived to your potential.
I question my purpose daily. I wonder if I make the people in my life proud. I wonder sometimes if I let my family down sometimes. Am I in the right profession.
I’m always compared to my father who I lost to cancer in Fall of 06. That was my everything and I feel like that I’ve let him down so many times, that he wouldn’t recognize his own son if he saw me today.
I just need a break from everything to understand my purpose, <( Only in a perfect world).
Something for me has got change in order for me to make sense of it all. I don’t want to be that disappointment any longer.