Life has been a whirlwind these past two weeks.

Today’s Thought: Wedding planning 

the day I got engaged was one of the best days of my life. I was so happy and wondering how someone wants to marry little ol me. I was never one of the girls to plan my wedding when I was 5 but I knew I wanted it to be beautiful and absolutely a good time. 

Fast forward to today and sometimes I have a lot of regrets about how I went about planning the wedding. In those moments I get stuck in my thoughts and I get sad because I’m a perfectionist. Some things I’ve chosen weren’t about me but for others and I hate that. It truly gives me anxiety. Like damn near panic attack anxiety but who the hell has planned a wedding before. These blogs and sites don’t really tell you about the real bullshit u go through. From shitty vendors, to expensive bills, to family acting a fool…the list freakin goes on. & that’s not to mention all the respectability politics that gets played with these damn invitations smh.

i am over it!

but I’m also truly blessed to be marrying a man who lets me freak out and vent but also is my peace. He shows me the bright side of things when it matters. He brings me back down to earth and for that I truly love him.

so ultimately wedding planning will go on. Shit will get handled…& I will get to marry my favorite person. 

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