if only I could be honest to you, I would tell you everything about how I’m feeling. But, I realised that I love you too much to let you know the “real” truth about me because it sure will turn to be a burden in your life. And I can’t do that to you, I can’t risk it because you mean the world to me, you really do. I know that I had done so many terrible things to you, and I admitted that I was really ashamed of myself. I still feel guilty ever since.