I haven’t cried since Thursday so that’s good right? I still miss talking to you and seeing you though. I’ve been wondering how you’re feeling and what you’ve been up to. Do you still feel lost or are you getting used to this? I don’t know what to say to you when we speak again. If you actually read these I don’t know but when we do talk please don’t feel like you need to tell me you love me when we get off the phone. I’ll be ok if you don’t. Please don’t ever say things to me because you’re afraid to upset me. I get it.