I feel like I am making progress with my home and my classroom. Both are looking better- both are not livable, but are not up to my high standard. I am not just going to buy a bunch of crap to have something- I am going to take my time and only buy things I really love. I need art really badly, but I am not going to buy cheap crap. I would like to have paintings of my children- that will not be cheap- It doesn’t really matter, anywayy since no one ever sees my house. I really need to get stuff listed on eBay. I hope I will have some time to do that over Thanksgiving break.
Just Keep Swimming
I am a 48 year old adult child of an alcoholic. My childhood could have been a Lifetime movie. I am dealing with PTSD, anxiety, and severe depression as a result. I am working on gaining an understanding as to what this means and learning how to be okay with myself. Some days, just killing myself and being done with it seems like the most sensible option. On those days, I keep telling myself, "just keep breathing in and out, that's enough for today."