Tomorrow will be 1 week since we last spoke. I’ve been doing okay but your still constantly on my mind. I wonder if you still think of me from time to time. I’m still waiting to hear from you. My gut tells me that I never will though, which makes me sad. But it is what it is.
If you think I’m happy then you’re wrong. If you think I will ever truly be happy after this then you didn’t know me or what I wanted in my life. As happy as I am to have had such a connection with someone if I knew it was going to end like this then I never would have done it. You really got me. I won’t lie, I feel played, used and tossed aside. This is something I will carry with me for the rest of my life. It has changed me in ways you couldn’t even imagine. I’m a different person now, the way I view love is ruined. I’ve simply lost faith. You have destroyed me. All I can do is try to fix myself day by day and hope in the end that I will be happy and that my life will be full. I hope you realize this. And even more I hope you haven’t let go yet. Because I haven’t. No matter how hard I’m trying.