[124] ~*Tue – 11/21/17*~

[3:38 pm]

Why oh why?! I haven’t had one of these dream in a while so why did I have one now. I dreamt that my husband didn’t love me anymore and that he didn’t want to stay with me and had found a new person at work. That person had even sent me a book with a list of stuff that should go to my husband. Like, what the hell?! Why do I always dream about these stupid ass dreams. I know I don’t trust the people at his work cause a few people that works there that had been in a relationship for years have broken up to start a new one with someone at work. That sometimes kinda scares me cause I don’t want us to be one of those. All those who have broken up with their long time relationship for someone that they work with ended up going back to their long time relationship. It’s just blah. I know I don’t have to worry about it cause I know my husband loves me but these dreams are just annoying. I’m a grown ass woman and it upset me so much this morning that I started sucking my thumb afterward to help me fall back asleep. I was a thumb sucker for a very long time. A habit I carried through my youth and adult life but finally got rid of it but when I have a hard time during sleep I tend to go back to it which hadn’t happened in a long time but I did this morning. There is just too much going on all at once. My brother’s funeral coming up, my other brother being a jerk, this dream, etc.

Anyways, I finally made it to bed at like 3 am last night. I wanted to read but of course I was too tired once I got in bed. I slept until about 2:30 pm today. I’m going to the hairdresser for 5 pm to get my hair fix so I have about an hour before I go there. I don’t really feel like doing anything right now but I wanted to vacuum the carpet at the door and the stairs and I don’t know if I’ll get to that before I leave or after. I need to get to bed early tonight cause I work from 8 am to 8 pm tomorrow. I also want to do some laundry before we leave Thu so I don’t know if I’ll get to that tonight or tomorrow night. I also need to clean the suggies tray and get stuff ready for my friend. I also “need” to go to the Casino after I get my hair fix for that Mystery Money. I hope I can win at least $25 so I can repay what I spent last night but of course it would be nice to make more. I’m not too sure if I’ll be that lucky thought as I won at Jack’s last week. I could still use a few hundreds. 




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