today was hard.

i just wish my stupid fucking heart would stop beating. please take me out of my misery. please god, let it end here. im so weak. and its so hard and im so pathetic. i dont even deserve the gift of life. 


i just feel so lost.

i dont even recognize myself anymore.

what happened to me? how did i get here? 

will i ever find myself? 

i hate how weak i am. because i dont want to be alive without him. he ruined me. i dont even want my life. i hate how he broke me.

giving up is hard but i suppose i couldn’t get very far either on own. 

the only reason i dont commit suicide is because i cant stand the thought of breaking my parents hearts. 

2 thoughts on “time.”

  1. Azalea_Jungle, what we are going through is tough but we are tougher. Believe me when I say I know exactly how you feel. I know what it feels like when people say ” I understand ” when in reality, they do not. I get it and I get what you mean. Your parents are the ones who love you more than anything else in the world, be strong; for them and for you. We are strong, we are worth it and we get it through it. Never bottle anything inside, whether it is speaking in person or whether it is writing whatever you feel like, right here, that’s perfectly fine cause every little helps. Please don’t hesitate to contact me if you feel like talking or anything, we’re all here to support each other x

  2. Thank you so much for your kindness.
    You’re so right, I could never hurt my parents like that.

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