to think even if I never knew you, I am certain I would have spent the rest of my life looking for you. an unexplainable piece of myself would be missing. with you, I became we and I just wanted you.
I often wonder if you ever truly knew that you were the tomorrow I always wished for; and as cliche as it may around, you were my ‘one that got away.’ you were the person who was capable of giving me the perfect happy ending that I had always dreamed of. unfortunately, I wasn’t yours…
somewhere along the line everything changed.
I watched as my entire world came crashing down and all I could do was blankly stare. I fell to my knees as you uttered goodbye. I fell asleep in puddles of my own tears just to be woken, gasping for breath as you appear in my dreams. my heart physically hurting unable to find the words that describe the pain. there is an emptiness as I go through the motions of each day. there are so many more things I want to tell you but I can’t.
truth be told, I fear the day we again cross paths; exchanging awkward glances from across the room. will you see it on my face? will you see in my eyes that life without you… it isn’t the same.